No matter what you've done for yourself or for humanity, if you can't look back on having given love and attention to your own family, what have you really accomplished? -Elbert Hubbard

Thursday, November 8, 2012

New blog

For those of you who followed this blog and signed up for email notification, I thank you for coming and checking things out! I've recently decided to start a new blog and take a little different direction with things. The new blog has just begun and I'm excited about its future. There is only one post so far, but more to come! You can check it out at www.hollandtayn.wordpress.com Again, thank you for checking out this blog and I hope, if you liked it, you will continue to follow the other blog. There is also a spot on there to sign up for email notifications of new posts. Thank you and God Bless!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Pause and Reflect

Dear Selah,

Hey baby girl! It's your daddy! You are so precious and Mommy and I love you so much! You are everything and more I imagined you to be (except we thought you would weigh more than 8lbs 7oz when you were born -- Mommy says thanks for not taking after Daddy there)! You did such a great job for Mommy during her pregnancy with you! You did a fantastic job (as did Mommy) entering into this world! I just want to pause a moment and reflect (since that is the meaning of your name, Selah {say-luh})....




You are perfect in so many ways! When I first found out God had blessed us with a beautiful baby girl, it definitely brought tears to my eyes and my heart melted, as it continues to do everyday. They plopped you up on Mommy's chest as she got to hold you for the first time! While the midwife was helping Mommy, I got to hold you for awhile and you just stared at me the whole entire time. I wondered what you were thinking while you were looking at your daddy for the first time! I handed you to Mommy and went out to get both sets of your grandparents and your aunts and uncles and of course your cousin Jackson! They were so excited and anxiously awaiting to hear news of your arrival and gender! They saw me come through the hospital doors and jumped up with excitement! They were so happy and filled with so much joy! I notified them that you had been born, perfectly healthy, and they asked if you were a boy or a girl. Of course I didn't want to tell them right away -- I wanted Mommy to be there too! They came back to the room where you and Mommy were. Of course you were wearing a gender neutral hat -- we couldn't make it that obvious! I asked them all if they thought you were a boy or a girl and they all guessed GIRL! They were so happy and excited to finally find out after so many months of keeping it a surprise! It was definitely a special moment, one that we will all remember forever!








Over the next day or so in the hospital, we were in so much awe of you. For so long we had wondered what you would look like. We wondered if we would be holding a little baby boy or girl. We wondered what features of each of us you would have. We wondered what it would be like to press you snugly against our chests or kiss the top of your head while we held you. We wondered what color of eyes (blue) and hair you'd have (dark for now). One thing we never wondered was if we'd fall completely in love with you (as if we hadn't already)! You are everything and more that we imagined you to be!






Over the next couple of weeks, we enjoyed our first ever Christmas with you! You got so many wonderful gifts and pretty clothes from so many people who love you too! (My favorite was the Bengals onesie -- thanks Garrett and Ash!) You also got some toys, stuffed animals and MORE clothes! You also had many, many visitors over the next few weeks! Too many to name, but they were all so excited to meet you and couldn't stop telling you how beautiful you were!





Well Selah, in my opinion you are so perfect in so many ways! Though I had never changed a baby's diaper in my whole life, yours I change with ease (thank you)! You are so calm and quiet and love getting your dipe' (a new word in Mommy and Daddy's vocabulary now) changed!  You also love getting a bath! In fact, the other day when I was giving you a bath, you got so excited when your back touched the water a little bit! Again I was wondering what was going through your mind, but you seemed to enjoy it (or at least tolerate it without screaming)! Then I held you as I combed and washed your hair and when I rinsed it off, you gave a little sigh like you were filled with so much relaxation and pleasure!





You are such a good girl! You sleep 4-5 hours on average every night and you've even thrown in a couple 6-7 hour sleeps for Mommy and me! You're eating very well! At first we wondered why you seemed hungry all the time, then we quickly realized that you're taking after Mommy and me already! Eating is definitely in your genes (no literally, for the first few weeks, you pooped almost every time after you ate)! You love "tummy-time" and laying on our chests! Mommy and I do make you a little exhausted, I think, from taking so many pictures of you though! You do something cute or new almost every day and we just HAVE to take 50 or so pictures to make sure we get the right one or the perfect smile! That's right, you're not even two months old at the time of this letter and you're already smiling! In fact, just earlier this morning after I got home from work, I picked you up and held you in my arms and you wouldn't stop smiling at me! You weren't just smiling real quick and going back to your "Ok Dad, give me to Mommy so I can eat, now" face! You smiled multiple times and for up to like 10 seconds for one of them! Again, I had a heart-melting moment!



Selah, I can't begin to explain the amount of love I have for you being your father. Remember that story I told you the other day for the first time? We laid you down in our bed and I told you that story about that father and his son? Remember? About how the little baby grew up and lived a perfect life? He helped and healed people and told them about His Father and how they could get to live with His Father forever if they only believed Him and followed Him? Remember how He told people the truth and about perfect love and offered them hope and rest and peace and life forever? Remember the part where the Son died on a cross for our sins, since He had lived a sinless life? And then when He arose from His tomb, He defeated death so we can now have life through Him! I know you have to remember that story! You were so peaceful and your eyes were staring straight into mine the WHOLE entire time I told you that story. We talk to the man in that story every day and thank Him for giving us such a beautiful, healthy baby girl! We ask Him to continue to bless you with perfect health and security. We ask Him to continue guiding us as we protect you and raise you all the days of your life.





Well, you did it again! Another heart melting moment as I look at you sleeping in your crib! You look so beautiful and peaceful sleeping! So content and full! As I go back to bed, I can't help but stare at you on the baby monitor. I check just one (two, three, four...) more time(s) to see your little chest or swaddle raise up and then fall back down. I roll over and shut my eyes, put my arm around your mommy and we fall asleep, if only for a few hours, knowing how truly blessed we are to be your parents!

Love forever,

Daddy